Anxiety, Warm Weather, & Friends

Anxiety, Warm Weather & Friends : these three things do NOT relate, at least in this post.  Do any of you suffer with anxiety?  Mine has been particularly difficult this last month or so.  When I don't feel control over things in my life (especially the future unknowns), my mind goes into overdrive.  What are things you do to help calm down?  Sometimes I make lists, but mostly it is getting to work that helps calm me down.  If there is something bothering me, then I work on figuring out what it is, then make a plan and work on it.  It is the not being able to figure it out or just mulling over it with no action that makes me more anxious & feisty.  We are going to move sometime in the summer and we're not sure where we are going to end up.  We have very limited funds and cannot live where we'd like.  I want to feel safe, where my children can play freely outside.  I worry about my school aged child & him being able to attend a good school.  THIS is the main source of my anxiety.   Today when I went to pick up O from school, a friend locked her keys in her car and needed a ride to her house to get the extra key.  Of course I said I would take her, BUT I was mortified that she would see inside my van.  I should be ashamed of myself, oh WAIT, I am!!!!  I went grocery shopping on Saturday and didn't bring everything in the house & there were boxes of cereal that fell out of the grocery bags and strewn all over the back.  Squished crackers all over the floor, misc. socks & shoes and toys and, well, you name it and it was probably in my van.  Then when she got out of my van she has some crumbs stuck to her behind...AHHHH!  I didn't say anything and left as quickly as possible.  My life is chaotic, but I blame it on my brain.  My mind is chaos and it reflects in all that I do.  Now, this is causing me anxiety...LOL, right?!  I decided to write to sort out my thoughts and try to get some control, because that's what it is about, no?  
On a happier note, the warm weather is making me a happy.  Especially since my little ones can play outside more.  They are SO much happier when they can go outside.  We have a little pond by our house and they love to feed the fish & climb around on the rocks.  I'm starting to think more about summer and how I need to make a plan to get the kids outside.  I've got to mentally prepare myself for a few months without elementary & preschool.  How will I keep my little rug-rats happy and busy?  Do you make a summer schedule?  I'd love to hear your suggestions and ideas.
Lastly, I want to talk about friends.  Friends are so important in our lives, especially for us women.  I am REALLY good at comparing myself to everyone I see or meet.  How does everyone have it together but me?!  HA!  This is a lie we tell ourselves, we all have our good and bad moments with our children or our spouses.  Coming together as moms & finding things in common allows us to feel connected.  I NEED to feel connected.  Getting to know someone opens our hearts and our minds and allows us to love instead of judge.  I have been blessed with some pretty amazing people in my life.  I haven't always felt that way, but the older I get and the more I learn, I realize that there have been amazing people around me wherever I went, but I was so busy feeling disconnected and judgmental, that I didn't get to know them and love them.  See the good in others and let them in your heart.